Here’s a song from my 2016 batch, back in God’s third attempt to gain control of this wild life of mine. I didn’t understand half of it back then. Now it all makes lots of sense.

Put your trust in Jesus Christ. He will never leave us nor forsake us.

Here’s a little more about it, with lyrics typed out below the old CD style lyrics image for easier reading.

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I would trade in my 
memories of Heaven
for a day full of 
memories with you
I would remember your face
If I could be in this place
and stay here just 
one day with you

They say everything’s
bigger in Texas
I’ve found no bigger 
love there than you
I took a walk on the sage
until I forgot my age
and when I got back
I was bigger too

And you wonder 
if I’m coming back
I’m right here
take my hand
be with me

What is love but
a list of intentions
that you’ve chosen
to never write down?
I took all my money
and gave it away
Am I the lovingest
man here in town?

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I didn’t quite realize I’d changed a couple words until just now, after posting it. I think that counts as kismet. I like the new way better.

He showed me a pure river of water of life, clear as crystal, proceeding from the throne of God and of the Lamb.

— Revelation 22:1

I saw a mother and her daughter 
each on different phones
When they collided in their cars 
they each broke different bones
and they heard different tones

I asked my brother why he 
fought her when she was so mad
He said he just did not believe 
he was the things she said
And I know his was the blood we shed

So tell me about the revolution
How we come around
We start again before 
we even touch the ground 

In the revolution
How we come again
A new beginning follows
every bitter end

You told me it was true
I would have another chance with you

In the mirror
a reflection that I recognize
I know that hair
I know that skin 
I know those empty eyes
A face I’ve so despised 

I know my heart
I know my soul
I know what I can do
I know that I could never 
make it here without you
And I know I’m without you

I’m washed away without you
I don’t know where I am
I don’t know how I got here
(without you)

There on the mountains is
a man with mercy in his eyes
He leads an army to the River 
and the Tree of Life
He fills the world with light

I wanna tell you everything
I can’t tell you anything
You know that I would
if I could

I wanna take you everywhere
I can’t take you anywhere
You know that I would
if I could

So what’s the matter?
What’s the difference?
What’s it take to notice
To know this
I’ve made the same mistakes

An empty gesture
without any motion
Taking you nowhere fast
Leaving you back
where you started from

He loved you when
you needed it most
Chased away all
your ghosts
Giving you life in death

I strapped that old gun to the side of my hip 
I could feel the cold steel on my fingertips 
And I’m gone
All the way gone
I ain’t got no money to speak of
But I’d kiss it away if I did anyway, and I’m gone

Just as the weather had started to shift
She said together was not how we fit
So I’m gone
All the way gone
Ain’t nobody here wanna get with
Some dirty old redneck with a rap sheet and tattoos, I’m gone

Oh, I don’t know if I’ll ever go home
I don’t know if I’ll ever go home (X2)

Well I passed this town on the way in to drift
My past come around now it’s high time I split 
So I’m gone
All the way gone
I’ll stay if they tell me to stay here
I’ll go if they leave me alone
Call this home or I’m gone

Sign on the window says “open at ten”
I’m hungry at seven, I’ve got to come in
Or I’m gone
All the way gone 
I’m wearing in the clothes of my brother 
We carried the rose of my mother 
I love her, I’m gone

He said to His mother, “Woman, behold your son!” Then He said to the disciple, “Behold your mother!”

— John 19:26-27

He always told you
He would be coming back for you
And when he told you why he left 
He always told you the truth
He never meant to lead you astray
It just turned out that way

And how they found you
Unsettled in your house alone
You never made it to the point
Where you made your house into a home
You never meant to leave things undone
It just turned out that way 

One thing we really ought to do
When we get to live again
We all should start out making nothing
And then make lots of friends
And if we still don’t get a damn thing out of life
It just turned out that way 

I’m already gone
I’m on my way
My path is set in stone
Got nothing left to say
I’m already gone
It just turned out that way

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I know he’s coming back. He promised me. When he comes back, it’s going to be like joy you’ve never seen – for everyone.